Sorry . I'm really sorry . I won't asked for your forgiveness . 'Cause it's my fault . I feel really bad about this . I even had a nightmare about it . And finally , I got the guts and I told secondlove and Miss Eng . I feel really really bad . I didn't wanted this to happen . Really . I hoped you believed me but I think you won't . I could only blame myself for this . I feel like I'm a betrayer . I had prepare for the worst already , I guessed .

I didn't want this to happen . All I wanted was my baby . He came too suddenly . I admit , I was afraid of him at the first place . Then , it got me a nightmare and I've decide not to let this kind of things to happen to me again . I've said it out . It was the right thing to do , isn't it ?

All I want was baby . But now , I really can't even face him , for what you did to me . I don't know how to tell him . Shame of myself . Really . I took it as my fault . Baby , just blame it on me . I think that without me in your life , you will be happier . 我真的真的很爱很爱你. I'm willing to do anyt for you . Really .